January 2027
Hi there!
Wow. What a year!!
I know you got some bruises. Maybe a little more than you expected. But look at you!!! How much you learned about yourself. About what you no longer wish to carry, what makes you feel alive, and what makes you feel a little less like yourself.
All the people you were once so scared to lose. Perhaps they helped you reach the next version of yourself. Be thankful for their presence and for the little miracles they brought into those temporary seasons of your life. I know it took you so long to say goodbye (Okay! Maybe the imaginary goodbye; but let’s just say it counts). I know you kept giving people reasons to stay, even when the little voice inside you knew it was time to leave. But how beautiful is it to let go? How freeing is it to finally confess, honestly, all the feelings you have been carrying? And to stop pretending that something doesn’t hurt when it does.
And how beautiful it is to have people who still love you. In all the seasons of your life. Even when you are not at your best. And such a mess.
I think you really need to sit down for a moment and thank yourself. For turning hate into love. For choosing kindness when you could have chosen bitterness. For transforming yourself despite the difficult seasons. For not allowing a few painful experiences to make you a person who stops believing in the goodness of people. That is no small achievement, you know.
And the permanent tattoo bruised on your finger. I hope it reminds you that you are never really alone, even when you are on your own. Remember that scary morning? I hope you never forget it. I know you were a little embarrassed to cry in front of your neighbour that morning. I also know you magically wanted to teleport to the hospital, but then it’s still a scary place to be – all alone.
But it’s okay. We all have our little big fears. And it’s okay to fall apart a little.
Or maybe the universe always sends someone at just the right moment to remind us that we don’t have to face it all alone.
I hope by now you are able to cut an avocado. Properly. Without making a complete mess of it. And if you still aren’t, that’s okay too. Maybe someone will do that for you. And perhaps that is also a lovely thing about life. You don’t have to learn to do absolutely everything on your own.
I hope you have thanked all the friends who stood by you when life got A BIT SCARY! Especially the ones who checked in & listened & who made space for your feelings, & who didn’t make you feel like you were asking for too much when all you wanted was a surprise Matcha Latte! Don’t take those people for granted. Please send them a little note right now.
And please, do not forget the magic you experienced in Sardinia. The light, the little moments, the feeling of being somewhere completely different, and whatever it was that made you feel so wonderfully and magically alive. Please make a separate memory jar for this. Put little notes, sparkles, tickets, and anything that reminds you of those days inside it. And open it a decade from now. I wonder what you will be doing then. I also wonder who you will be. But I hope you will smile at the girl who collected those little pieces of happiness.
And listen. Don’t ever pack your bags again and leave the country overnight just because things get a little too heavy inside your head. Promise? You are allowed to want a change of scenery or just a bedroom. But please don’t confuse running away with finding peace. Maybe all you need is to step outside, sit on the pavement near the main road, and let the cars & thoughts in your head go by.. Maybe another stranger will come along and offer to listen to your worries. Maybe someone will say something that stays with you for years. Maybe nothing really will happen at all. And that’s okay.
Because that’s how magic and the universe work sometimes.
All the good you put out eventually finds its way back to you. Sometimes through the same people, sometimes through completely different ones, and sometimes in ways you could never have imagined. And sometimes, it even saves you.
I hope you have become a little kinder to yourself. As kind as you are to others. I hope you have stopped measuring your worth by how much you can do for someone, or how much of yourself you can give away.
I hope you still make time for your magical rituals. Your favorite coffee, your books, your writing, your walks, your little mornings, your own moments in the sun.
And I hope you are still curious. About people, about places, about the world, and most importantly, about yourself. I hope you haven’t stopped asking What If? I hope you still allow yourself to daydream without immediately asking whether something is practical or possible.
And one more thing. Please don’t forget to have fun. Make silly plans. Buy yourself flowers. Wear that supermodel outfit. Get another photoshoot. Take the train somewhere without overthinking the destination. Laugh a little louder. Let people surprise you. Let yourself be surprised, too.
I don’t know what 2027 has waiting for you. But I hope you meet it with an open heart, a little less fear, a little more courage, and enough room for all the unexpected things that make life beautiful.
And if things get difficult again, remember this: you have been here before. You have found your way through days you once thought you couldn’t get through. You have been loved in places you didn’t expect, helped by people you barely knew, and surprised by the kindness of the universe.
You will be okay.
Be gentle with yourself, okay?
And please, cut that avocado.
With so much love,
Your past self. ♡